Tuesday, January 27, 2009


Normally, I don't mind sharing. I actually enjoy sharing, most times. But not when I'm forced to share. Or expected to share. A few stories:

Not too long ago I was startled by an adult acquaintance. I didn't know this person well, so when said person came up to me while I was eating my dinner and held out their hand, you can well imagine my response: cocked eyebrow, questioning look and a "huh?" escaped my lips. This person then ASKED me for part of my dinner. What made me even more confused (and a bit angry) was the fact that they had some food of their own! (sigh...)

There's another person in my life that, upon seeing that I have something they want, will come over and screech, "OOOOOOOOooooo!!! Can *I* have some?!?!" This is something that happens frequently, to the point where I just want to rip out my hair and SCREAM!!! And when told, "No, thank you," said person goes off to pout.

Another situation that frustrates me is when I am FORCED to share. I have no power to say, "No, thank you," because I know I will taken aside and asked, "Why CAN'T so and so have that?"

A cute little incident happened the other day. I was sitting and eating my lunch when a little head appeared in front of me, cheeky little grin and hand held out. He was asking for some crackers that I had. He surprised me so much that I went into the eyebrows raised and "huh?" behavior. He then giggled, "Only kidding!" and scampered off. He was just so darn CUTE that before too long, I handed him a handful of the crackers he had been eying. He said, "Thank you!" with a grin, then promptly turned and shared with his new-found friend.

Now THAT'S the kind of sharing I don't mind!

Friday, January 23, 2009


I came home from rehearsal (and a long day of homework) to find my desktop computer in pieces.

Hubby had purchased parts to upgrade his computer, then used his old parts to upgrade mine.

At least, that was the theory. But we all know how theories work, right?

The upgrade didn't go so smoothly. And now my desktop is down. Yes, I still have the laptop, but because I didn't
know my desktop would taken apart TODAY, I didn't put my school work on my flash drive.

Okay, so the problem is becoming clearer.

(sigh...) I have a paper due on Sunday, a paper that I've been stressing over because they want me to declare my major. That would be simple if I knew what the blazes I wanted to DO. Add that to the fact that my desktop with this paper is now inaccessible, and we have one wigged out Heidi.

Yeah. Don't Panic.

Why women should feel good naked

I just read this article and some of it really hit home.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Keeping up with the Jones'

I've never been good at this game.

I honestly don't understand it.

Even as a kid, I didn't want what everyone else had. I had more fun seeing their joy and sharing what they had than wishing I had that thing.

Now that I'm an adult, I STILL don't get it.

I have a little house. Yeah, it's 1200 square feet and houses 3 people. Sometimes it feels like we step on each other, but we still have enough space to go into separate rooms to get away from the others. MUCH better than the 2 bedroom 700 square foot duplexes we've lived in. Also, it only takes us MAYBE an hour to get the house cleaned up and company ready. Seriously. An hour, 90 minutes tops.

I have a little car. I LOVE my little car. I can zip in and out of traffic, I don't have to do an 18 point turn in the parking lot, I can park nearly ANYWHERE, it only takes (currently) $16 to fill the tank, I get great gas mileage and... IT'S PAID OFF. No car payment! WOO HOO!

We don't have a LOT of stuff. Which is probably why the housecleaning goes pretty quickly. Though I've noticed a bit of clutter starting to edge it's way into my home. I will need to peel a layer or two off before it bugs me too much.

I've tried to live simply... and for the most part, it's worked for me. It got tough when I had a wee little one- crib, stroller, car seat, high chair, so on and so forth. But lately even Kels has slimmed her belongings down. I think she's also figured out that having too much S.T.U.F.F. can be unhealthy.

I still don't understand why the Jones' feels as though they need all that S.T.U.F.F., though.
BTW, S.T.U.F.F. stands for Stuff That Undermines Family Fun. It's a FlyLady thing.

That's your horoscope for today...

Your luck is about to change today -- and that could be a good thing or a bad thing, depending on how pleasantly your life has been going. But change is always good, even if it brings some clouds into your sunny day. If things take a turn for the worse, then just hang out. You can and will get through any challenges that arrive. And if things take a turn for the better, just enjoy it! The good things that you have done in your past are now going to be rewarded.

Uhhhmmm... maybe I should call in sick and just go back to bed.
Yeah, sounds good to me!

Monday, January 19, 2009

What I did today:

  • Went on a bike ride (Brrrr! It's COLD out there!)
  • Homework
  • Had a picnic lunch
  • Homework
  • Tried to fly a kite but found out someone broke it and didn't tell me. Growl.
  • More homework
I'm supposed to write a goal statement and identify my major. I'm also supposed to comment on how I envision my future in that field of work.

Easy... IF I knew what the blazes I wanted to DO.

Sometimes I think it would be easier if an angel just popped out of the sky and TOLD me what I'm supposed to do. Or maybe give me an OBVIOUS sign, because if someone IS telling me what I'm supposed to be doing, I AIN'T GETTIN' IT!

(sigh...) sometimes I feel like such an idiot.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009


Feeling kinda down today. Not entirely sure why. My irritation level is up, too. The walk this morning helped, thank goodness.

Kelsie bounded in last night and said,
"I know what I want for my birthday! A party on the 17th!"

(Dumbfounded stare)

"You know, just a little group of people. We could have it here! Or maybe at Mountain View Ice Area!"

(Blink. Blink)

"So, CAN I???"

(DEEEEEP breath) "Kelsie, look at the calendar. Who would be here to help you host a party?"


(Blink. Blink.) "Try again."


"He WORKS Saturdays, REMEMBER???"

"OH. Well, could you do it?"

"I have rehearsal on Saturdays, REMEMBER???"

"Well, you won't be there ALL DAY."

"Uh, yeah, actually, I WILL be there all day the 17th. We're doing ComedySportz. Says so on the CALENDAR."

"Oh. (Pouting) You never let me do ANYTHING!" (storm off to her room)

(Rolling eyes and sighing) "Why did I HAVE a kid?!?! WHY?!?!"

Hmmm... could THAT be why I feel irritated? Oh yeah....

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Stuck song...

For some reason, and I don't know why, I have this song stuck in my head!!!

It won't go away, no matter what I try. :(

Saturday, January 10, 2009

My daughter...

Kelsie asked earlier this week if she could go to a birthday party today. It's rare for her to plan ahead like that, so we said yes.

Kelsie has had HOURS to get ready for this party. HOURS!!! I just asked her if she was ready to go and she gave me a list of everything she still needs to do.

HOW did I wind up with such an air-headed girly-girl?!?! Was I supposed to sacrifice a stuffed squirrel at the alter of smartness? Did she totally by pass the line for brain cells?!?! WHAT?!?!?

Honestly, I love her to death. But I'm sad to say that I doubt I will ever understand her. If we were the same age, I STILL don't think I'd understand her.

Horoscope for today

"You should know by now that relationships can go through phases, so if one of yours feels like it's entering an off time, don't panic. Either things between the two of you will get better again eventually, or it's time for you to part ways. Your feelings for this person are conflicted right now, so it's a good idea to get distance from them in order to figure it out. If you find yourself compromising whenever you are around them, then this time apart will be refreshing."

Boy, isn't that the truth! I'm currently "on the outs" with a friend, and it's been a relief to not have to listen to all of her dramas. The sad part is, in hind sight, she never wanted to listen to me. She would call or IM long enough to say what was going on in her life then hang up or log off. Huh... Hind sight is 20/20.

Friday, January 9, 2009


Why are men afraid to empty the lint trap on the dryer?

And why is it that every time I sit down at the computer, ONE of the cats has to come bug me??

I took advantage of the "non-rainy" weather to actually get outside to walk. I don't really like walking on a treadmill- it's mind-numbing.

So I went to a park and enjoyed listening to and watching the birds. I don't think I've ever seen so many robins in one place!

As I was trundling along, I crossed paths with a runner. I immediately envied her. I've always wanted to be a runner, pounding the pavement and keeping a fast steady pace without huffing and puffing. She smiled at me and said, "Hi." She wasn't even out of breath!!

Way back when I was a little kid and obese was a word I didn't know the meaning of, I couldn't run more than 50 yards without breaking into a coughing fit that would scare the playground teacher.

Now that I'm an adult and fit into the category of obese, there's no way I could run just 25 yards!

When I start coughing during an attack, it's embarrassing. People look at me funny and treat me as if I'm contagious. The sticky sputum that is created during an attack has no where to go but UP. And sometimes there's so much, it has to go OUT. I've had plenty of practice spitting! And being part redneck, I can hawk 'em pretty far! (This is why I don't really like to exercise around people.)

Even if I could run in my current state of largeness, it would be something reminiscent of the liquid in a lava lamp. Blurb, blurb, blurb.

My asthma could be much, much worse. From wikipedia:
During very severe attacks, an asthma sufferer can turn blue from lack of oxygen, and can experience chest pain or even loss of consciousness."

I'm thankful I don't suffer chest pain or lose consciousness. While my asthma is a pain, it's tolerable. Maybe I'll get to be a runner up in Heaven. :)

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


about 8pm... (Those of you parents will probably get that. I HOPE you get it!)

The amount of attention my family members demand of me is in direct relation to how many projects, school assignments and chores I have. No kiddin'. The more on my plate, the more they bug me. :)

Isn't this CUTE?? No, I didn't pose him, HONEST!
And I'm going to toot my own horn for a moment. This is my calendar:
Yesterday morning I did a 15 minute walk, 20 minute walk after work plus upper body weights.
This morning I did a 15 minute walk. Tonight after work I will go play pickleball with the Martin. :)
My goal isn't really to lose weight, it's more to get off my fat duff and MOVE.

Okay, and with that, I am officially late leaving for work. :)

Monday, January 5, 2009


Why am I so FICKLE?!?!

I don't want to go to bed at night, but in the morning I don't want to get up.

I don't want to get in the shower, but when I DO get in, I don't want to get out!!

When I have to be cooped up, I wish I could get out and go for a walk...
then when I DO get the chance to walk, I think, "Aw, do I HAVE TO??"


Sunday, January 4, 2009

Now THAT is a CAKE!

I SO totally want this for my birthday. :)

Another view

Note the 20 sided under his claws. :)
(sigh...) I'm SUCH a Geek.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

My Horoscope for the day.

While I have fun reading them, I don't really believe in horoscopes. I DID enjoy this one, however. And I will follow the advice given from this day forward!!

You cannot let someone else's bad mood turn your sunny outlook into a fog-covered sky today. As much as you would like to sit with a blue friend and commiserate over life's little dramas, today you need to stay focused and on your own path. Let them go off in a corner and mope while you carry on with life and get things done. It's not that you don't care -- it's just that you aren't going to be doing them any favors by getting into a bad mood along with them.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Friday Random Thoughts

Whoever said, " A woman's home is her castle" OBVIOUSLY doesn't live with the same people I do.

Phrase I hate: "Iuhoh".
For those of us that don't speak "Duh", that's "I don't know".

Two sentences that make me want to rip out my hair:
"I didn't think to ask."
"I didn't think you'd mind"
ANY sentence you say that starts with the three words "I didn't think" makes you look SMRT.

Why is it that when men hunt, they aim carefully, yet when they PEE, they can't hit the broad side of a barn?

Flatulence really isn't funny. Just say, "Excuse me" and get on with life!

I need to stop biting my nails again. I was doing so well for awhile, as long as I kept polish on them. But then I'd go work at 606 and the polish would be scraped off or washed off with the Goof-Off, or the orange cleaner stuff. I WILL do better now that the majority of the paining is done!! Go me!

I LOVE the internet. I have learned so much, from roofing to history to how to save a .pub file as a .pdf. I just need to install the software now and play with it.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

The Baby

Our cat Corkie is 5 years old. He's always been a snuggler, but lately he's been a bit more demanding:

"Mom." (tap tap tap)
"Mommy!" (tap tap tap!)
"MOO-OOM!" (tap claw tap!)

"FINE. I'll go climb on...

...DADDY! HE will pet me and love on me!" :P

(that lasted 3 minutes)

"Mom." (tap tap tap)
"Mommy!" (tap tap tap!)
"MOO-OOM!" (tap claw tap!)

"YAY! I got what I WANTED!"

(Sigh...) It's as bad as having an infant. At least I can leave this baby at home by himself!

Random quotes

"It tastes of Moth balls!" "How would you know?"

"Too much plastic surgery and you look like a tranny!"

"Let's pour it back in and take it back."

"A bunny rabbit? In what position?"